| I'm feeling crappy. |
[Nov. 28th, 2008|12:51 pm] |
| [ | my emotions say |
| |  uncomfortable | ] |
I'm not feeling crappy as in "ill", but I just feel a general sense of dread and unhappiness. I don't know what it's about and I hope it goes away! |
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| so, the plan is... |
[Jun. 30th, 2007|12:21 pm] |
| [ | my emotions say |
| |  thoughtful | ] |
I'm thinking about getting on some kind of meds to make me more likeable, less irritable, hopefully make me lose weight...something that will make me numb...something that will take away all of the stress and unhappiness...I've just been REALLY stressed lately, and everyone's always telling me how mean I am all the time and most of my friends don't talk to me, so obviously something is wrong with me and I see that and I recognize that and I HATE feeling like I'm making other people unhappy, so I'll just change and be totally submissive to everyone so that everyone will like me and I'll work as much as humanly possible (not that I don't do that now lol) so that I can pay off some of my smaller bills (like not car note and rent, but like credit cards) so that'll hopefully take away some of the stress and then once those bills are paid, I can hopefully save up, so that way when I get older (cuz I'm already old) I can be mainly debt free and not have to work constantly...and working all the time will probably make everyone in my life happy cuz I won't be around to make anyone miserable anymore and I won't be around to make any sarcastic comments and hurt people's feelings just by being around...and I won't be able to feel anything cuz I'll be numb... |
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| dreams |
[Jun. 25th, 2007|02:25 pm] |
| [ | my emotions say |
| |  stressed | ] |
I had some crazy ass dreams last night. First off I dream that there's a poisinous snake in my bedroom at my mom's house and me, my mom and Jimmy are all in the hallway, and I have a shovel (cuz I'm big and bad and all) and the snake comes towards me, while I'm trying to smack him with the shovel and right before he bites me, I scream "MOMMA" and wake up....so, I've been up since 3 am thanks to that one, but I fell asleep again around 6 and had a weird dream that I was on a reality tv show about cooking?? (I can't cook AT ALL...so I don't know what that was even about) and to leave, we had to swim in the bayou that I grew up across the street from...and I kissed a girl..I don't remember why, we just kissed once, but I was like WTF!! (don't get too excited jimmy lol)...and I have been sleeping like crappy for the last week, I'm about to get put on Xanax or something so that I can actually pass out sleep and not wake up 1500 times a night due to some crazy f'ed up dream.... |
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| blah... |
[Jun. 14th, 2007|03:52 pm] |
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I'm not having a good day today...I don't feel happy in the least, not for any particular reason, I just feel unhappy...and I have to work tonight...and I'm already stressed about money for an event that really isn't even being planned yet, but sorta is...I don't know...whatever... |
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| tired... |
[May. 24th, 2007|10:40 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | work | ] |
| [ | my emotions say |
| |  tired | ] |
| [ | speakers are vibrating |
| | mcr | ] |
I'm not feeling happy today, not sure what it is, I'm just feeling weird with my life and certain things in my life. I'm just tired, tired of working all the time, tired of feeling like I'm never good enough (no one makes me feel this way really, I just kinda do), just tired. Tired of being scared of getting hurt again and just sitting around waiting for it to happen...tired of not ever having money or the time to take a vacation...a weekend away would be nice, but who can afford that? not me! It's not like I'd get the time off of work to do that anyway... |
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| life |
[Mar. 22nd, 2007|10:59 am] |
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I don't know why I'm wasting my time or his time, it will inevitably turn out all the same... |
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| guys |
[Mar. 6th, 2007|02:50 pm] |
| [ | my emotions say |
| |  confused | ] |
Ever since me & my boyfriend started dating like in november, he's always wanted to move here to 'be closer to me'...but he's always talked about moving in with me, and I was thinking about it, and you know something, I'm just not ready to shack up 3 months into a fucking relationship...I thought I may have been, but ya know what? I definately know I'm not now...because we talked about it this weekend, he got his hopes up and ya know, I'm sorry for that, but mr. I love you after like 3 weeks of dating said that yesterday (we got in a big fight about it) makes him want to take our relationship slower....well, trying to pressure me into letting you move in with me makes me want to take our relationship slower too...
I think I'm going to be an old maid...it may be lonely but at least I want have to worry about every little thing I do or say.... |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 5th, 2007|03:05 pm] |
| [ | my emotions say |
| |  pissed off | ] |
F U C K, I'M UNHAPPY |
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| love i guess |
[Jul. 30th, 2006|10:22 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | home | ] |
| [ | my emotions say |
| |  sad | ] |
| [ | speakers are vibrating |
| | one life to live | ] |
I hate seeing one certain person, because, even though I miss his stupid ass all the time, after I see him, I miss him even more. I saw him friday, and like since then, all I want to do is see him again, kiss him again, have him hold me again. It was so great. He's all I've wanted for the last 2 years and I still want him more than ever, and I know even though I could still have him, I've learned in the past that he doesn't know how to treat me. I wish he would just be more mature and not treat me so bad. I just wish this feeling would go away. Hopefully it will someday. I haven't said this in a while, but I still love Justin. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 28th, 2006|11:30 am] |
| [ | my emotions say |
| | thoughtful | ] |
| [ | speakers are vibrating |
| | The Killers | ] |
Pink
Who Knew
You took my hand
You showed me how
You promised me you'd be around
Uh huh
That's right
I took your words
And I believed
In everything
You said to me
Yeah huh
That's right
If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them up
Cause they're all wrong
I know better
Cause you said forever
And ever
Who knew
Remember when we were such fools
And so convinced and just too cool
Oh no
No no
I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you friend
I'd give anything
When someone said count your blessings now
For they're long gone
I guess I just didn't know how
I was all wrong
They knew better
Still you said forever
And ever
Who knew
Yeah yeah
I'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
Until we
Until we meet again
And I won't forget you my friend
What happened
If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong and
That last kiss
I'll cherish
Until we meet again
And time makes
It harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep
Your memory
You visit me in my sleep
My darling
Who knew
My darling
My darling
Who knew
My darling
I miss you
My darling
Who knew
Who knew |
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[May. 2nd, 2006|10:45 pm] |
 | You scored as A Slave To BDSM. Admit it, you like being tied up and being told you've been very naughty. You like teasing your partner and making them squirm, and not letting them be able to do anything about it. Some people think what you do is sick and disgusting, but you know it's all in good fun.
A Slave To BDSM | | 68% | Sex God | | 63% | Virgin | | 43% | A Romantic | | 35% | </td>
How are you in bed
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 | You scored as Downright Dirty. You are downright dirty. You love to be touched and to touch. You love all sorts of kinky shit and tongue is your specialty. :P
Downright Dirty | | 88% | Passive | | 63% | Tease | | 50% | Hopeless Romantic | | 50% | Sweet | | 25% | </td>
Whats your kissing style?
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| I HATE EVERYTHING |
[Mar. 10th, 2006|09:44 am] |
| [ | my emotions say |
| | pissed off | ] |
I HATE THE WORLD, I HATE EVERYONE IN THE WORLD AND I HATE ME...............DON'T ASK QUESTIONS, DON'T TAKE THIS PERSONALLY...JUST ACCEPT IT |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 1st, 2006|07:19 pm] |
| You Are A Sometimes Ex | 
You're sometimes an ex, and sometimes you two are back together
And while your ex may seem like old news right now...
You've got to wonder why you keep getting sucked back in |
wow, they must've been reading my mind..geeeeezzzzz |
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| feeling crappy |
[Feb. 13th, 2006|07:58 am] |
| [ | my emotions say |
| | sad | ] |
so, i went to bourban st. this weekend, and it was ok, but not as fun as everyone has made it out to be... then last night justin (my ex bf) comes over after being away at drill all weekend, and he's all hot and in his army uniform, and we were talking and he got a job alllllll the way in alexandria for 8 months... that's 4 and 1/2 fucking hours away...and we just recently started not dating, but hanging out, i don't even know what it's called and now i'm supposed to give that all up again???!!?!??!!? i'm soooo sad...i don't even know what's going on with us, I know i want to be with him, but i don't know if he wants to be with m, but what does it even matter if he'll be 4 & 1/2 FUCKING hours away............i haven't said this in a while, but i love justin |
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| yea right..haha |
[Jan. 16th, 2006|09:33 am] |
| You'll Find Love Where You Least Expect It | 
You're the type most likely to find love... surprised?
You shouldn't be! You're a fun, independent woman who is always out and about.
And you're smart to sometimes leave your girlfriends behind and go it alone.
Men love to approach you when you're out by yourself - including Mr. Perfect! |
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| ho ho ho, merrrrrrrrrrrry christmas!!!!!!!!!!!! |
[Dec. 24th, 2005|11:01 pm] |
| [ | my emotions say |
| |  silly | ] |
| Your Christmas Stocking Will Be Filled With Little Wrapped Presents | 
You've made Santa a very happy fellow this year.
Don't worry - what happens at the North Pole stays at the North Pole! |
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| bllllllllaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah |
[Nov. 17th, 2005|06:43 pm] |
| [ | my emotions say |
| | sad | ] |
Nickelback
Far Away
This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore
One my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I wont give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore
So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know
I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving
Hold on to me and
never let me go |
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| hehe |
[Nov. 6th, 2005|05:53 am] |
| [ | my emotions say |
| | fuck boys that act like "men" | ] |
so, it turns out i'm a slut, however, you would think I'd be having more sex...grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
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